my heart's whispers to my everyday...

Still remains...

2008-10-20T02:27:40Z

I feel a knot deeply contained inside my stomach

A sensation of all and everything’s out of whack

An overcast of gloomy ambiance lingers around

No where to go for it’s cagey bound

Time passes slowly clinging to it’s tick tock

As my self preservation is starting to crack

Undesirable thoughts and feelings

Quietly and quickly settling in deep within

My desires presently wondering why?

Why nothing ever comes of my tries

Was I not born to be?

Have a wonder change most of me

Perhaps it’s a nasty curse

That I bestowed unto myself with a mighty force

For I used to not yearn for all of I want now

Now those past thoughts are reacting on me somehow

Maybe someone is showing me an attain occurred

That to further see clearly all must be blurred

Seeing as that the sunshine does not come before the rain

Sorrow must come before all is perfectly attained

One day everything would look easily done

For every battles some are importantly won

But for now sadness lurks within my veins

As my tears falls and the aches remains.

Still Remains. (c)

10/19.08' .emmcee.

sad

2008-10-19T09:17:40Z

I write on here... that today is one of my saddes days. Forgive me for I don't have the energy to look forward to tomorrow, nor the day after that.

~~arrrrrggggghhhhh~~

Due to unabling to sleep...

2008-06-18T08:01:28Z

If you could have chosen your own name: Leave it as it is it’s very unique but I would add “Juliette” for my middle.

Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: It’s originally Black but now it’s sort of brown, black& light brownish…
Height: 5'2"
Weight: hmmm…
Ideal Weight: Doesn’t really matter as long as I’m healthy…
Best Feature: My heart… hahaha
Worst Feature(s): my tummy …
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
US Presidential Candidate: Clinton, YES let Bill Clinton back!!!
Body Type: indifferent… hehehe
Ethnicity: F I L I P I N O. or FilAm…
Believe in God: YES!!!
Want Kids: Yes, one day when the time is right…
What Drugs are you on: LIFE.
Favorite Exercise: Walking the Dog. hehehe
Fave TV Show: look in my profile via myspace of friendster.
Fave Movie: all time fav. “Forrest Gump”
Best Tip for not binging: huh???
Fav Low Cal Meal: WATER.

Have you ever:
Shoplifted: If getting free stuff from 7-11 is considered shoplifting, I suppose, Yes.
Been Arrested: Nope and hoping Never.
Had Sex: Today??? Kinda personal don’t ya think???
Had Sex in a Public Place: Let me leave this one Blank as well… for incriminating purposes. HAHAHA!!! Just kidding. ;)
Made out or hooked up with a friends boyfriend: Nope…

Skinny Dipped: No…
Had feelings for a married man/woman: blank.
Tried to commit Suicide: nope not yet… HAHAHA!!!
Seen someone die: Nope, and I really wouldn’t want to see that, no matter what the circumstances are…
Lost a parent/sibling: yes, my eldest brother.
Had an abortion: no.

Describe your ideal guy/girl
Build: huggable
Height: anywhere between 5‘3" to 6'
Eyes: 2 would be ideal
Personality: Yes, he needs to have one…
Job: hmmm, doesn’t really matter as long as he doesn’t strip for money…

Random:
I See: Ignorance
I Feel: hot…
I Want: to eat fried fish.
I Need: a job.
I Hate: people with no Souls.
I Love: my Husband.
I Like: my life.
I Lust: for my little niece hugs.
I Cry: often, more than I should.
I Eat: salty foods too much.
I purge: heck no!!!
I Fear: lost causes.
I Wonder: what my dogs are thinking…

ehhh...

2008-06-17T22:29:08Z

A Writer's blog has occured... It lingers it hangs through the every inches in my soul... Why???
Perhaps most of my works were destroyed by some ugly person inside and out... The only mistake that continues to haunts me... I dispise all memories made with this person even the good ones. I wish him best with his life and hoped that he would leave me be.
He's gone and I wish he'd completely dissapears in this life and beyond the stars...

More so than ever...

2007-05-29T18:23:38Z

He's everything I though I never wanted but became, all that I needed. He makes me laugh, makes me think, makes me want more of this world than anything... I'm falling inlove with him and I treasure this love more than any ones I had... could it be???

Is too soon to tell...

but I love him.

<3 .mOna.

somehow...

2007-05-10T21:44:06Z

Some things are better left unsaid...

I'm not sure if I care enough to continue what we've started. I do love him, but I don't know how much yet...

Strangely this is a first for me.