I feel a knot deeply contained inside my stomach
A sensation of all and everything’s out of whack
An overcast of gloomy ambiance lingers around
No where to go for it’s cagey bound
Time passes slowly clinging to it’s tick tock
As my self preservation is starting to crack
Undesirable thoughts and feelings
Quietly and quickly settling in deep within
My desires presently wondering why?
Why nothing ever comes of my tries
Was I not born to be?
Have a wonder change most of me
Perhaps it’s a nasty curse
That I bestowed unto myself with a mighty force
For I used to not yearn for all of I want now
Now those past thoughts are reacting on me somehow
Maybe someone is showing me an attain occurred
That to further see clearly all must be blurred
Seeing as that the sunshine does not come before the rain
Sorrow must come before all is perfectly attained
One day everything would look easily done
For every battles some are importantly won
But for now sadness lurks within my veins
As my tears falls and the aches remains.
Still Remains. (c)
10/19.08' .emmcee.
- Location:on top of the bed leaning on the left side wall of the room
- Mood:
sad - Music:"Whatever you like" BY: T.I.
- Location:on top of the bed leaning on the left side wall of the room
- Mood: sad
- Music:"only hope" By: Mandy Moore
If you could have chosen your own name: Leave it as it is it’s very unique but I would add “Juliette” for my middle.
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: It’s originally Black but now it’s sort of brown, black& light brownish…
Height: 5'2"
Weight: hmmm…
Ideal Weight: Doesn’t really matter as long as I’m healthy…
Best Feature: My heart… hahaha
Worst Feature(s): my tummy …
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
US Presidential Candidate: Clinton, YES let Bill Clinton back!!!
Body Type: indifferent… hehehe
Ethnicity: F I L I P I N O. or FilAm…
Believe in God: YES!!!
Want Kids: Yes, one day when the time is right…
What Drugs are you on: LIFE.
Favorite Exercise: Walking the Dog. hehehe
Fave TV Show: look in my profile via myspace of friendster.
Fave Movie: all time fav. “Forrest Gump”
Best Tip for not binging: huh???
Fav Low Cal Meal: WATER.
Have you ever:
Shoplifted: If getting free stuff from 7-11 is considered shoplifting, I suppose, Yes.
Been Arrested: Nope and hoping Never.
Had Sex: Today??? Kinda personal don’t ya think???
Had Sex in a Public Place: Let me leave this one Blank as well… for incriminating purposes. HAHAHA!!! Just kidding. ;)
Made out or hooked up with a friends boyfriend: Nope…
Skinny Dipped: No…
Had feelings for a married man/woman: blank.
Tried to commit Suicide: nope not yet… HAHAHA!!!
Seen someone die: Nope, and I really wouldn’t want to see that, no matter what the circumstances are…
Lost a parent/sibling: yes, my eldest brother.
Had an abortion: no.
Describe your ideal guy/girl
Build: huggable
Height: anywhere between 5‘3" to 6'
Eyes: 2 would be ideal
Personality: Yes, he needs to have one…
Job: hmmm, doesn’t really matter as long as he doesn’t strip for money…
Random:
I See: Ignorance
I Feel: hot…
I Want: to eat fried fish.
I Need: a job.
I Hate: people with no Souls.
I Love: my Husband.
I Like: my life.
I Lust: for my little niece hugs.
I Cry: often, more than I should.
I Eat: salty foods too much.
I purge: heck no!!!
I Fear: lost causes.
I Wonder: what my dogs are thinking…
- Location:in the bedroom
- Mood:
hot - Music:the electric fan...
A Writer's blog has occured... It lingers it hangs through the every inches in my soul... Why???
Perhaps most of my works were destroyed by some ugly person inside and out... The only mistake that continues to haunts me... I dispise all memories made with this person even the good ones. I wish him best with his life and hoped that he would leave me be.
He's gone and I wish he'd completely dissapears in this life and beyond the stars...
- Location:@ home
- Mood:
blank - Music:"Love song" 311
He's everything I though I never wanted but became, all that I needed. He makes me laugh, makes me think, makes me want more of this world than anything... I'm falling inlove with him and I treasure this love more than any ones I had... could it be???
Is too soon to tell...
but I love him.
<3 .mOna.
- Mood:
happy - Music:"Just the Girl" by: The Click Five
Some things are better left unsaid...
I'm not sure if I care enough to continue what we've started. I do love him, but I don't know how much yet...
Strangely this is a first for me.
- Mood: blank
- Music:"The Kill" 30 seconds to Mars
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